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Maybe read The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle. It could help with the emotional aspects of survivors guilt.

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Most people think of combat PTSD as the soldiers kicking down doors and shooting innocent civilians, or intense firefights where people are being killed all around you. Then there are the soldiers that have lost life and limb from some IED. but some of us have PTSD from the fear of possibly dying at any moment from indirect fire ( https://www.arconserve.ca mortars RPG grenades) that feeling burning in your brain for an entire year changes everything about you. i am in a constant state that everything around me could kill me at any moment and I have been out of Iraq since 2005.

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The one that seems to have started to take hold is the method of stepping back and breaking down the whole scenario in front of me and eliminating threats logically one by one. but that only works when I know what I am getting into, if I am surprised with anything, i instantly switch to my training as a way to cope with my fears.

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